The Not-So-Great Return!

Hello everyone! :) Firstly, I apologize to all my readers for being away for so long.

Many reasons which I'm feeling too lazy to recall and mention for the long desertion. Plus, during this time, I've become more lazy than I already was and my sleeping hours have increased considerably. Although, I very much love sleeping, but when you have nothing to do except sleep, you start getting bored of it. Tell you the details later in the next post.

As for now, I hope to return to blogging just like before. I really missed the space here.

Till then, and A Very Happy New Year 2012. :D :party

Hope you all have a wonderful time. :D

Speak Up!

I've always been a complicated personality from close. From afar I may seem as every other normal girl laughing and .. laughing only(because that's only the thing I do :P).

Among other complications, my one problem is that I don't speak up to the people things that are going on in my mind which are concerned with them. These things actually make me a slave of anger and self-frustration.

If any of my friends are doing something wrong that I do not approve of, then I get angry by myself thinking that why in the world are they doing this, but I do not say anything to them about it.
Then again if I expect a few things from my friends(now I don't but I do hope for them) and they are not fulfilled then again I go into my weirdo mode.
While all this is happening, I do not actually say anything to them but I do show full signs which clearly indicate that I am disappointed or angry(in most cases) with them. My friends obviously are not so dumb that they won't catch the signs and then then do ask me if anything's wrong with me or anything they did to make me act that way. And to this I say a flat 'NO', saying that they haven't done anything wrong and it's not their fault.
Also the times I think that things are not going to change I do not say anything.
I wanted that or hoped that they'd understand. But after doing some self-psychoanalysis I came to the conclusion that whatever I wanted or was hoping for actually has no sense in itself.

You know, all this time all I did was keep mum every time such a situation occurred, leading both the parties in a state of misery. On one hand people are confused as to what they did wrong and thinking of possibilities for my abnormal behavior and on the other hand I am there, cursing myself as to why I didn't say anything to them and why won't they understand such a simple thing.

But as I said, it's not actually very complicated. It was me all the time that made it complicated and miserable for them as well as for me. I figured out that just saying things that are in your mind to the people concerned helps a lot. It might be the case that people think they have done nothing wrong. There may also be possibilities that even after saying things your friends take them lightly. But, the main thing here is first actually saying things that are in your mind. People won't understand things or your feelings unless you actually tell them. Just tell them clearly that you do not like some things in them and may be they'll change for the good. I am not saying that you go on telling people that you expect 'this or that' from them but then if at certain point your expectations are not fulfilled and you act the way I did, after people ask you what's wrong, tell them what is actually the reason for your sadness+anger.

Saying and clearing out a few things can actually make life simpler, rather than keeping it with yourself and I realized that not so long ago and I am happy that at least I figured out that I was wrong with something! :D

Unanswered Feelings

Life can sure be cruel at times. As the human nature goes, it always wants more; more of everything.
One such greediness of the human nature is of to be liked and loved by more and more people. Also, a person always wants to be in the priority list of the person who is in his/her priority list.

But there are certain times when your feelings are not answered. You may love and respect a person very much but there is no guarantee that the person loves you back.
Sometimes, even when we know that we are not as important to a person as he/she is to us, even then we choose to be by their side and also end up getting hurt.

On the other hand, there are people who like and love you dearly, but you don't have the same feelings for them. You very well know that they will give you all the happiness you need but even then you run after the people who you treat as a priority not after the ones who treats you as their priority!

I always wondered why the human nature is so? Even after getting hurt, we still long for those people who hurt us rather than staying up with the people who love us, who treats us more nicely!

For me these are the "Unanswered Feelings." It's good if they are answered though. But I highly doubt they do! Have you ever been in a similar situation?

PS: I am not sure if this holds true for everyone. This is all my personal thinking and analysis. And I really don't know why I am even writing this post! :f

The Big Fool's Day!

April the 1st

The first of April, some do say, April The 1st
Is set apart for All Fools' Day.
But why the people call it so,
Nor I, nor they themselves do know.
But on this day are people sent
On purpose for pure merriment.
-- Poor Robin's Almanac (1790)

The fool doth think he is wise, but the wise man knows
himself to be a fool.
Shakespeare - As You Like It (Act V, Scene I)

You all must have guessed by the title itself what the rest of the post has to say to you.
This year no one fooled me neither did I go into great lengths of stressing my mind and creating ideas to fool anybody!

When I was a kid I never knew that April fool's was an international event. I thought that it's some Indian tradition or something like that. And I don't remember any April fool that was memorable enough except for one when I was in fifth grade.
I wikied 'April Fool's Day' but my poor brain refused to grab anything from it! :P

Not to mention on every April Fool's day Google comes up with something weird and this time too it came up with this 'Gmail-Motion' which lets you interact with gmail using some funny and stupid body gestures! To be honest my eyes never sway to any other part of the page except for the two blank boxes. I wouldn't have knwn about this Google-Motion hadn't it been for VoiCE(Official blog of Crazy Engineers). Read the article. It's really funny!

Anyway, I do not think there's much I can write about this day since I have no good-bitter memories of it. Share your memories of the All-Fools Day as it is also called if you have any!

Ciao! ;)

A Little Dedication

Words can never be enough to show you how I feel,
It's so wonderful around you that it seems too good to be real.

And I couldn't ask for more,
Coz I already have the best with me.

Always being there when I need you,
I knew you were the one I could hold on to.

You dwell in my heart so deep,
My relation with you is the definition of MY Friendship!

This was a little something I wrote for my two best friends sometime ago. I even sent them an MMS, with the picture above. Ouch, my balance that time!

Anyway, I do not remember what occasion it was, or there was one at all. Still, showing your love in the form of words, a hug, a small-nice gift, or anything gives you double the pleasure than the ones receiving them, because you are happy when the person you love/like is happy because of you! :$ That is one of the best feelings that I have experienced, of watching people I love happy although for a very short while because of me.

What all I want to say is, never miss a chance of showing your dear ones that you love them, care for them. An occasion is not always necessary! There are some who feel no need of doing this crap, but there is. Also some feel shy and embarrassed to portray their feelings. But what's there to be ashamed of, I don't get it. :brow

As the saying goes "If you love somebody, show it rather than telling them and if you hate somebody, tell them rather than showing them."
Well, we can ditch the hate part for now! :P

PS: I don't resemble to any of the girls in the pic! :P

Story Telling

A few days back, I think the day before yesterday I went to my brother's farewell program(of course to see his irritated expression every time he saw me :P). No no that wasn't really the case. I went because parents were invited and also to capture his last happy-sad moments.

The program was wonderful and each student was given a memento and some gift. After returning home I unwrapped the gift and it was a novel. Well, you can't really call it a novel since it was the kiddo version of the novel. The book was Gulliver's travels. My brother started cursing his school for gifting such an useless thing. Stupid brother. I then realized that maybe it was a bit childish of the school to gift tenth graders such version of the novel. But then, it struck to me that it was not totally useless. Every book that the students received, yes each of them received different books and had a different story to tell with a different moral.

I just flipped over the pages of the book and I could see some pages with pictures on them. It reminded me of my childhood story books. One page was the story and on the other there was a picture that described a moment in the story.

As children, we get more interest when we see any drawing and more than that the book catches our eyes if there are colors. My mind drifted into the past and I could clearly, okay not so clearly remember some of the stories along with the picture beside it and the most important, I also could remember the moral of those stories.

Yes, it all comes down to moral in the end. Our society is made up of individuals who have certain morals in their life. Likewise we have those people too who do not follow any kind of morals. And the population of the latter is increasing day by day. As children, our parents try to instill morals into our growing brains so that we become a better person and be a good part of the society. But how many of us are actually following those morals? I have many people sending me hoards of messages everyday with something like "A great saying" or "A thought for a lifetime." But most of the senders have no morals at all themselves. I wonder if they themselves read the message before forwarding it to someone else. :brow

Things like moral, they cannot be forced on people. They themselves should have at least few morals in their life which they should follow. Morals make a person and such people make up the society. Morals/Sayings, give them a little place in your life because they are somehow true and they can help you get through the dark phases of your life. Morals don't always work xP; that is also true, but they do work most of the times! :i